Moonlight and Faerydust

Slacker??? Or maybe just enjoying life at my own pace?

I keep asking myself this lately, am I a slacker? Maybe I'm just having trouble getting into any kind of normal routine after John took more than a month of leave when he got home from Iraq. We relaxed, we hibernated, we stayed in for days playing computer games and watching entire seasons of TV shows, eating breakfast at noon and dinner whenever we woke up from late naps. Pancakes at 3 AM became normal and it was a sweet time.

After years of being wound up tight as a spring with job stress, it's good that I am finally in such a relaxed state of mind. Heaven, and anyone around me during the last year at the flower shop, knows, I needed to re-learn how to just sit still for three minutes at a stretch without climbing the walls or breaking out in hives.

Now, we're weeks into John going back at work, yet I'm still in this limbo land of floating la-de-da I'll get to it eventually, or maybe, or next week. I figured if I did one of the things I had been putting off, keeping up with my blog, it might help. So here I am, writing again.

Today John had an extra day off, again. No complaining about getting to be with him at all, it was wonderful to dawdle around Borders, sit outside and enjoy some Starbucks, then come home and BBQ while watching mindless shows like the Bachelor.

BUT, tomorrow I am gently sending myself to "regular household routines bootcamp"!!! I have to find a balance between taking the time to enjoy all the little moments of bliss, and joining in daily mundane life on some sort of schedule. We'll see how that goes.....

Blue skies on my birthday.

After days of howling wind, storm clouds and blustery rain my birthday dawned chilly, clear and bright! The sky is so blue it glimmers, and I've enjoyed relaxing inside with a cup of tea while I enjoy every ray of sun shining into the windows. I know for everyone who's living with below 0 tempratures right now, my saying it's chilly at 60 degrees is a laugh, but hey, it's Hawaii! 60 degrees is cold!

I've been doing a four day "virtual retreat"  http://www.comfortretreats.com/ hosted by Jennifer Louden. What an incredible experience! So many genious people on each of the calls to fill us with wisdom, comfort and insight . I'm so thankful that she put this together for those of us who aren't able to travel to the retreats she does regularly.

I'll be writing about it more when it's over. I figure this is as good a time as any to shake out the dusty moths that have been gathering here. I can't even find a good reason or excuse as to why I haven't written a darn thing since Memorial Day.

For now I'm off to enjoy a quick "change of original plans" Birthday dinner, then I'm getting a malasada in place of birthday cake! Woohooo!! John says I can even have a candle on it, he's such a sweety!

Sacred Sunday ~Memorial Day~

  Here are some photos I took when I placed a lei and orchids at the Soldiers Memorial at Schofield Barracks. Both World Wars, Vietnam and Iraq and Afghanistan are all represented by a statue.

The Vietnam soldier reaches for the soldier who has served in the Middle East

Soldiers from World War One and Two

Boots, rifle, dog tags and helmet stand in honor of a fallen Soldier.

Bunny Day...

Somehow Easter just isn't as fun when the Bunny brings you a cold instead of Peeps, the usual chocolate and jelly beans. I started running a fever Friday night which made me have to miss Full Moon circle. I've parked myself in bed for the most part ever since with piles of books and plenty of hot tea. Always being PollyAnna Sunshine, I'm just grateful I'm sick now and will be better in a couple weeks when John is home!

I did have some fun this morning. I was on the phone with my Mom and she was trying to corral a gang of little ones for an egg hunt. To keep them busy while "the Bunny" was hiding eggs, I got to play the part of "the Bunny" on the phone. I think I must have said Happy Easter in a sqeaky high voice to at lease five or six kiddlings. I kept wondering the whole time just what a bunny voice would sound like?They were so cute! One hung up on me! By accident of course, so I had to call back and finish talking to the rest.

Ah the innocence before the mean world spoils it all. I'm so glad I never allowed myself to be ruined by the normal folks ugly idea of reality! I still believe in The Bunny, and Faeries, and Santa, and Cupid....and umm....Leprechauns and Elves.....and more Faeries....and The Great Pumpkin...and Faeries....and hey look it's a Bunny Faery, I believe in those too!!!

Sacred Sunday ~Romantic Thoughts~

If you're a LOST fan and have missed eposides this seaons, beware, spoliers ahead! If you don't mind a bit of spoiling then watch the clip and read on. I think it's the most amazing sweet touching bit of TV I've ever seen. Desmond and Penny are my favorite couple, after Jin and Sun of course!

In this scene Desmond has to make contact with Penny, his "constant" in both timelines he is traveling through. If he doesn't have a constant, his mind will have nothing to anchor him, and he'll continue switching back and forth faster and faster until his brain can't take it anymore and he dies. Penny is his constant, and by believing in him and his love, she saves him.

I love the concept of this. As always the writers of LOST do not dissapoint! In my little romantic world, the idea of someone being your constant is for them to be the one true thing that anchors you to reality, gives you hope, and gives your life importance no matter what, even when zipping through time! Much about the movie The Fountain comes to mind when I think of being someone's constant. It's also like the Celtic concept of anamchara, being someones soul companion. Knowing that even through different lifetimes and lives and even timelines someone is there for you has to be the height of romantic thought and true love.

John darling, you're my constant! I love you!

~Sacred Sunday~ Happy Birthday Skye!

Seventeen years ago tomorrow, an amazing being was born onto the planet and has been spreading love and joy in all of our lives ever since. My darling girl Skye, the most incredible daughter anyone could ever dream of! I remember those first moments, looking into her big blue eyes and knowing in my heart that she was a special soul who would dazzle the world.

I can't wait to see more of the woman she is on the path to becoming, her creative abilities put me in awe, her intellect and wisdom floors me, and the goodness I see in her inspires me to be a better person.

Happy Birthday Sugar Pea! I love you!!

Reminscing through my photos brings back wonderful memories.....can't leave out my sweet boy! He'll get his own post on his birthday of course, but as I was finding some old pictures of Skye I couldn't help but add these of Cory too!

Can't forget Skye and "Her" John either! I swear she isn't that much taller now than she was years ago!

I realize as I sit here how completely blessed I truly am to have these three wonderful people to love! Now that's something Sacred!

Tea and laughter...

Today the sacred was found in cups of tea shared with friends, wonderful conversation and topped off by laughing so hard that my sides still hurt. For anyone who caught Jimmy Kimmel after the Oscars tonight, you'll know what I'm talking about. If you didn't catch it and you want to, just head to YouTube and do a search for Jimmy Kimmel and Ben Affleck. Be warned, it's for adults only and those not easily offended by obviously bleeped words. I haven't laughed so hard in ages! Laughter is awesome...and quite sacred in my book!

A gift from the Faery world...

Yesterday I went ahead and got the tattoo I've been dreaming about for years! I found someone who could do it properly with a little tweak or two and went for it right then and there. Well, almost, I had to wait two hours, and have Debby come and be the moral support for my Faery marking. Thanks Debby!!!

John has said since we saw this Brian Froud lady (below) years ago that I needed the flower as a tattoo. She is called the Bright Mother, and we first met her when John bought me the Froud Faery Oracle for Christmas in 2000. For him and the faeries, (and me too!!!) I finally did it!

Mine is in the exact same location, though my flower has a bit more pink. This was taken only moments after last night, so it's a bit snarly red. Already this morning it's looking wonderful! The purple outline is also gone from the stencil thingie....I love it! I'm so glad I was brave and took the leap!!

Sacred Sunday...

What do you write about when you know you're supposed to be on task and write something but don't know what to write about? I guess that's called writers block? Maybe it's the mundane being so absurdly routine and normal that I don't feel it's worth writing about? Then again it could be that I've moved ever so slightly back into that blah zone. I have plenty of things to keep myself busy with, lots of good books to read, music to listen to that I love, even some good TV lately, yet even with that, there's an undercurrent of boredom and unentheusiasim sneaking around my ankles and creeping into my days.

So I don't seem like a total writing schmuck dishing out nonsense, here's a bit of gratitude that makes any day, even a boring one, Sacred.

Another week over, which means one more week closer to John coming home on leave.

Good classic food, and the cooking of it after being inspired by great chefs.

Simple pleasures, blue and white teapots and china arranged like a still life on shelves, my lazy sleeping, snoring, cat and curled up dog, laying in bed and having a clear view of the moutains drenched in afternoon sunshine, and talking to those I love however far away they are. 

Check this out boys and girlies! If you're in Hawaii in April, you should be there! The lineup this year looks awesome...and it's good for the environment!!

http://www.kokuafestival.com/home